Baby's First Easter

I've decided that Easter is the most important and meaningful holiday in relation to Alexis. Easter is to celebrate Christ's triumph over death. Because of Him and His resurrection we will see our baby again and be able to raise her, and that experience will be more joyful than raising her here on earth like that quote from Joseph Smith says:

"He told the mother that she should have the joy, the pleasure, and the satisfaction of rearing that child, after the resurrection, until it reached the full stature of its spirit; and that it would be a far greater joy than she could possibly have in mortality, because she would be free from the sorrow and fear and disabilities of mortal life, and she would know more than she could know in this life."

Even with this knowledge, because we can't remember anything of the premortal life, it is easy to forget and feel cheated and want her here NOW. Especially when seeing others that are pregnant or have their babies. It doesn't seem fair. But she was just too perfect for this world. What an honor to be her mother!

This Easter has meant more to us than it ever has before. We went to visit Alexis' grave and took her an Easter basket with a book titled "Baby's First Easter" and a little pink bunny and two eggs where we put letters from each of us to her. We also took some beautiful pink tulips. Her grave is a peaceful place for me but its sad too, you think, I shouldn't be going to a CEMETERY to visit my daughter. But such is our lot right now. We miss her so very much. There are not words adequate to express how much. We have faith we will see her again and can't wait for that glorious, magnificent day. Happy Easter baby girl! We love you!